Thursday, 6 October 2011

'Forgive' me…?!


'Forgive' me…

If I feel what I say
And say what I feel
Keywords: ‘Depth’ and ‘Blunt’
Others… ‘Oratory’ or even ‘Sincerity’.
Some, ‘simply’ call it… Poetry.

'Forgive' me
Because I constantly refuse to conform
to these norms
(and bandwagons)
That are all
but NORM-al!
So… now I’m weird!?
Forgive me.

Forgive me…
For constantly thanking the Lord for
a brain
a mind
and its how-to manual...
The reason why
I'm no one's answering machine.
‘Yes’ and ‘Okay’ are only heard when necessary
Ohkayyy… Now I’m stern?!
Forgive me!?

Forgive me
For ‘appearing’ intelligent
and glowing with enlightenment
Your senses can’t contain it?!
Forgive me

Forgive me.
Forgive me.
Forgive me.

For having ears that don’t have lids…
So I HAVE to hear you

Eyes, that do
but, chose to stay open
Through the ‘hypocrisy’ of blinking
So I HAVE to see you

These fingers and thumbs for getting scarred and exfoliating…
As I dribble these letters into scribble
Why am I even bothered?
I want to educate you…
On forgiveness
Forgive me.




BUT…
You’re better off with these fingers…

Trust me!

Cuz my tongue… *hmmm*

My tongue is split and forked,
sizzling hot, titanium tipped,
and a
poison dipped menace
constantly assaulting
MY palate!!?

(think of what it’ll do to you)


POOFFT!
*slings it out*


I don’t sting
I 'STONG'!!
That’s when everything goes wrong


*SNAP*


Forgive me for educating you...
Forgive me for enlightening you...
Forgive me for warning you...

Otherwise I’d be seeking forgiveness from a deformed, mutilated, and poisoned cadaver

We wouldn't want that for me would we?




*flat line*












FORGIVE ME…… for being me…?!
Never knew how to be anything or anyone else!
Just me.
Forgive me?!!?
(I just went ahead and did it, didn’t I?)

Wednesday, 5 October 2011

Us and Them


Many a times…
Many a day...
We know the answers
The right stuff to say.

But hey...!

Some time a day...
We need to hear them say IT…
The exact same way.

 Thoughts...

Too much of a thought concerning the future is not for us.
It’s a thing in the realms of god(s)...

The future is not meant for us Us US...

Its meant for
The Us
In the time to Us
IF
It comes to us.

#LivingInTheNOW

Sunday, 2 October 2011

A Lesson (or two) from my weird memories…



While growing up and hanging out with people older than myself (by hanging out I naturally mean eavesdropping, playing mute around them, and persevering thru their endless errands...)
I picked up alota stuff... trust me ALOT!

Back to the story/theme

I remember an uncle sharing a story of an old scholar of his down in the borders of Cameroun (an approximate location of my village)...

The old man was giving them the key/elixir/secret to knowledge (my uncle was his a keen and stubborn student)... This was as a result of him badgering the scholar (Mallam) with questions like... “how does one become smarter/knowledgable?” “What’s the fastest way to master this and that?” etc at times even saying ‘ridiculous’ stuff like “how do I become as knowledgeable as you in a nick of time?”

Being a man of wisdom that he is, he would get himself outta the clutches of juvenile curiousity and thirst for knowledge with no accord or concern for its content and context and surely consequence...

However, one day he did give them a key... (which might make you shrug me off or hiss for playing with your attention spike all this long)

He taught them something, which when I heard, I found humour in.
He said “if you want someone to learn something... FEED THEM!

“Make sure they are well-nourished... But not too much to become slaves of their bellies but just right enough to make them appreciative (and attentive 'sponges'.)”

Secondly make them more curious than ever... Be vague and ubiquitous if you have to.

Thirdly make it fun for them...

Show them they know not… They know little.
Yes! Trample on their pride and arrogance... Cuz that’s one of the curses on those-who-think-they-know or have self-acclaimed themselves- knowledgeable/smart etc

Under this particular segment I learnt the most invaluable lesson yet... Courtesy of a test he put my uncle and his fellow students to.
While they were deep in recitation/translation/memorization of a certain chapter of The Holy Quran, he asked, or rather tasked, them to find a certain verse within the whole 114 chapters and 6000 plus verses.
And he made it interestingly competitive too... A prize!

Being who they were... Everyone of them (over 10 or so) rushed helter-skelter, juxtaposing with no prowess, using any kinda quirky way to shortcut the process so they come up first.

Hell! My uncle even confessed to wanting to consult another scholar for the answer. But was faced by two dilemmas-

One, the guy was really far away and he wouldn’t be able to go and see him while beating the short time frame given by the scholar... (coupled with the fact that travel, at that time, was done by foot or bicycle, the former being the most accessible)

Two, HIS PRIDE!

The next morning after the usual bout and routine of lessons/lectures/tests/revision, the wise old one, confident that none of them found the answer, made it look like he was about to end/close for the session (with the usual ‘lets-round-up-with-a-prayer routine’) then with an air of sagely smuggness turned as if he was about to leave...
And blurted "oh... what’s the answer to last night's question?"

They were silent for a minute... Then all of them started talking at once.

Some saying “I am this close to getting it” (by that he means... this close reading the whole BOOK)
Others this close to luckily guessing it.
Others...

He just smiled and said “see you in the evening...”

NEXT DAY. Just like most days, the time they have the recital/memorization sessions, which usually involves him reading out a verse and they would repeat it. This would be done at least 3 times so it sticks, then they’d move forward onto another verse till they had enough for one day/night.

In last night's recital they were two verses shy of finishing off the chapter they’ve been on that particular week (a thing I ‘forgot’ to mention :-p)

TODAY... As they were done with those two verses...


*FLIP FLIP*


They turned to the next page and awaited him to start it off so they follow…

He read not more than 2 verses and… LO AND BEHOLD!


He read THE VERSE...


Before he even went 5 syllables into it… They were looking at each other silly, side to side, then back to him, and kept repeating this act till he finished reciting the verse…

THEY WERE SILENT!

He had to jog them to continue by clearing his throat loudly...
“EHEM EHEM!”



*HE HAD HUMBLED THEM BY CONFOUNDING THEM*


Wise and prude, he didn’t say anything till the lesson for the day was over... Then he smiled and came closer to them…
Saying... “does anyone of you know the moral of this whole episode of ours?”


The answer “NO!?” came forth quite inaudibly.

He continued
“…it goes a long way to show you that human beings, irrespective of age or background are hasty and forgetful creatures. They tend to be in a rush for no apparent reason, their so-called haste which bores competitiveness, for no justifiable reason too, is a thing that blinds them to the point that they don’t see what’s RIGHT in front of them. They miss out on the little joys of life and living, which are the little things that sum up a meaningful and smooth sailed life. In all that haste which begets waste, they ‘forget’ to enjoy, or rather, savour those moments, people, and places… It’s much worse with you young folks... Shooting and cutting without aiming or measuring... Blinded by (false) ambition, juvenile pride (just to brag), and greed…”


He doled out a lot of wisdom you see... The chunk of which they didn’t appreciate till they grew up way much more... He sensed that vibe from them...


So he gave them a dumber/simpler (gwari-gwari) version-

“WHEN YOU ARE LOOKING FOR SOMETHING... LOOK IN FRONT OF YOU BEFORE ANYWHERELSE! AN EXAMPLE IS LIKE YOU DROPPING A COIN IN THE DARK…”


"AHHH'S!" & "OHHH'S!!" echoed.
Your village boys nodded accordingly while displaying yellow teeth glowing against the fading red sunset... :p


Since then… I try and not look toooooo far away when I’m ‘searching’’ for something, some place, or someone. Start with a small radius. Then expand gradually, gradually, gradually… till you reach your figurative El Dorado.


 


Beauty... Is and Isn't.

Beauty isn't necessarily accessed/perceived by the eyes.



Thus my stance-
“Beauty isn't in the eye of the beholder!”



Beauty is smelt.
It’s touched.
It’s tasted.
It’s heard.



OR NOT!



Beauty is universal.
Beauty is sensed.
Beauty is felt!



Nirvana is reached when all the 7 senses dip their receptacles and take in beauty.



What does that say of those limp in one sense or other?
Doesn’t the hypocrisy POP out and grow from a mole hill to a mountain in a sec!



Oh yes… I agree

The blind can’t see it…
The deaf can’t hear it…
The lepers can’t feel it…
The anosmiacs can’t smell and taste it…

But... Wait a second!

WHO SAID BEAUTY IS LIMITED TO BANAL SENSES OF PERCEPTION??


Beauty is…
Envisaged
Its enshrouding
Its encapsulating
Its encompasses all ‘8 senses’

Really smart move there Mrs. Hungerford.... to say ‘beholder’ and not viewer, visioner, seer.

For BEHOLD!

That’s the beauty of beauty…

It’s—
Pristinely
Utterly…

Just—

BEAUTIFUL!




For beauty... is a state of mind.



I know what’s beautiful.






The question is…





DO YOU?

Growth. Maturity.

And here I was thinking…
Growing up (maturing if u may) had to do with hardening
and not softening up…

(Keywords: Exoskeleton. Protect. Survive.)

Ripen you say?

Why..?!

So the world and its minions could chew me, digest me, and shit me...?!?
I don’t think so!

Back to basics.

#REVERSION


If only it were that easy…

To shift forms and cores
At will.

Such is the flexibility and fluidity that I look forward to…
When I grow up.

*sigh*


Limited choices.
Shorter times.
Boundless repercussions.

Other aliases it assumes.



Saturday, 1 October 2011

Running… From OR To?












What's the worst best part of running?!


*don’t get ahead of me now… Read On*

We all are runners. Absconders. Pursuers. Fugitives. Chasers. Runners.
...Constantly engaged in it too.

The words “from” and “to/towards” are what differentiate us.

Many run away “from”
Whilst others run “to/towards”…
Something
Some place
OR­ Someone.

WHICH ARE U?

Again I ask… “What’s the best part of running?”

It may be different for everyone…
But...
The word ‘destination’, be it physical or metaphysical, comes to mind every other time.


Who's who amongst runners?

The Froms’
Or
the Towards'?

The answer lies in d duality of d duo...


It’s… The runner From AND Towards!

His/her speed is unmatched,
Stamina- unrivaled,
Determination- iron,
and will forever be distinguished…
Cuz she/he has identified what to abscond from, why, and how fast
And knows what to charge towards with immense vigor carrying each and every cell of his/hers along.



Are u him/her?
Or just another runner in the ever dynamic and diluted statistics etched in-between the letters
‘L’ ‘I’ ‘F’ ‘E’





Find something worth charging towards… and BOLT!

Identify something cancerous to you and yours… and ZAP!
With that kind of resolve and definitive bearing… even lightening is gonna seem incoherent and dawdling.


Saturday, 30 July 2011

Poly-something suntin







A month ago I was with a friend, his wife, and a widow friend of theirs…
Random conversations ensued in the car as we drove back to the neighborhood where they all lived. Of which (thanks to yours truly’s mind) was the gratefulness to the Lord Almighty that men didn’t have rivals/co-husbands/or my favourite KISHIYOYI. (Hey! I did say random in bold)





WTH…!!

I mean… in an instant I infected everybody in the vehicle including the 1 and 2yr-olds we were with, by my mind’s meanderings.


Take a sec…

Clear your (already infected) mind…

Now imagine…

Just imagine for a second, a minute, a day, a week, a year, a decade...
how it would be like if a woman could/would marry more than one man and live under one roof with all of them.

No limits to your imagination. (it’s yours after all)

Start it from the indigenous perspective.
Like here in Nigeria, instead of a Muslim (northern or southern) who’s religion allows marrying 2-4 wives… switch the sexes and see how it goes (in your mind woh! I no de for froblem).

From the Mallam Bahaushe to Jauro Bafullatani to the Baba Alaji or Nnayi (igbo) all vying for the madam’s attention (and much more… even if just to piss the rest off).

GEEZ!




Picture these scenes-

“…Ya naga kana mun wani gani gani ne?!!” That’s just the Mallam #2 asking why #1 is giving him certain derisive looks (getting ready for a showdown if you ask me).

Or Alaji #1 asking alaji #3 why him no dey hold d pikin well. “Tie wrapper well. Make pikin sleep!”

“Da zaman banza gwara aikin…” I don’t think so MISTER! (proverbs don suffer!)

“Nna… because today is my day… I will let u drive my Mercedes Benz…” (na Regular wo! No think say na beta tin) *igbo accent*

Come hear blackmailing yanzzzzz- “… Kudirat darling! U know u ave my arrt dont let all these oooligans cloud ur ead and arrt from my andsome face...” (yeah… u guessed ryt. Yoruba accent)

“I’m the first/second I should be respected most”

“I’m the better looking of them all… so…”

#4- “If they were all that then I don’t believe you would’ve paid my dowry, spent all that much on LEFE, and drag me down here. NI NAYI YAJI! 
Separation don come enta equation.

CHE!



Doing the dishes- picture grown man with apron etc. I know right.

“It seems you pay more attention to… than you do me. What have I done to deserve this?!?”

“You don’t look at me the same way anymore… ever since that winch winch you into marrying him nothing is the same…” *sob sob estrogen sob sob*

“You haven’t even tasted what I brought for you. You’re always claiming stomache and headache. I hate youuuuuuuuuuuu! No wait. You hate meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!! " :’(
(see confusion)

"THIS IS MY CHILD NOT HIS (or his or his or his)!"
 :-O AAAAAAAAHHHHH!!

Kids- be confused as hell! "Daddy. Daddy! Daddy!? Daddy?!!" (Poor things)

Cooking- “…I sabi passam! Today na my day! Yau ranar…girki?... nane. Na so so onga go largesse…”

Driving- “…make him no go kill u for us wo!”


&%%#&# *that too!* INFSALWKMD (I No fit shout as laff wan kill me die)


OMG…

Just think about the jealousy and rivalry sef.

Talk about Terminator meets Alien vs Predator in Cybertron as The Hulk pops in.
Ohhh boyyyyyyy! Lmao!!!





I cud go on… but something tells me your imagination’s got every other thing pretty much covered.